"Camille", what a dramatic movie! It was all about the purity of the most sincere love, a love that transcends the dimention of the common world. It is so beautiful in essence! Everything around was so superficial, hypocritical, and volatile, but the love between Armand and Margerite was untouchable by people who could not understand the depth of emotions, above all, the complexity of them in their most original form. This movie, this story mesmerizes me a great deal. "Camile" and "Random Harvest" are masterpieces of motion pictures. Both depicted the power of love, companionship, sincerity, devotion, willingness to let the emotions flow as the stream of a river in immaculate freedom. I do believe love like those two exist in real life, but they are extremely rare. It is a thing that comes only once in a lifetime and then crosses the boundaries of life to keep existing beyound it. So amazing how God gaves us the capacity to experience emotions like love. It is such an extraordinary blessing! It has a world on its own!...
The progress of time...
Time is a metamorphosis machine that shapes changes endlessly. Very often I think about the motion pictures of my life so far. It is so intriguing to look back and see me as I was before... I have very vivid memories of my past. Then, after all the analysis I ask myself if I could go back, I would have changed something. Yes, I would! Perhaps some choices, destinations, words, gestures... I have learned so much since the day I was born! I would like to go back in time, but with the mindset I have today. It would be so wonderful! On the other hand, if the things happened the way they did, maybe there was a reason for that. There is no question that everything was a lesson, a valuable one. The growing process is an amazing thing! Even the mistakes I have made were not in vain.
Morning...
The birds were singing beside the window today. How nice from them to allow me to enjoy their symphony. I think they are announcing Spring. What a marvelous season! The colors reborn and all the excitement of Nature is restored. The mood of everything changes as in a touch of magic. It is amazing to see the force of life reemerging as a volcano about to erupt its spectacular incandescent lava! There is no question that life is a contast change of gears. When I look at myself in the mirror, I see that life changed me by using the frames of time. My body is aging here and there. It is really like a metamorphosis. These are very gradual changes, but permanent. Today, I have much more awareness about life inside and outside of me than I had before. Before, still young, I used to take life for granted totally. Today, this is not the case anymore. I know that life is, in fact, very fragile in spite of its strengths. I look at it in a different fashion, with much more respect and understanding. We must be wise to handle it!
Witnessing one's life unfolding...
My son turned ten yesterday. While looking at him eager to open his birthday presents, I saw a movie in my mind of this entire life so far. The time I was pregnant of him and so proud of that! The feeling of having him moving inside my womb was so special. The day he was born, the strong bond between mother and child, the care, the sleepless nights, his first smile, first words, when he was about to learn to walk still twisting his little round legs... His discoveries, accomplishments, dreams, the building blocks of his personal journey of growing up... He has matured so much in ten long years! He is so beautiful inside... his sensitivity toward people surprises me and touches me so deeply! He has a very unique way to stare at life and embrace it. I learn so much from him, from who he is! I admire his tenacity to overcome the so many challenges he has to face every single day. When he goes to sleep, I love the way he holds me, as a koala bear hugging a tree. It is so great to a mother to feel she is taken as a safe harbor and source of love and acceptance by her children. It is a wonderful feeling! I am so lucky for being able to enjoy it every single night. I know I am!
Me
I am Mrs. Miniver, an ordinary middle aged woman, married, mother, housewife, living in a foreign country, and with a mind always in the mood of thinking. I am curious about people. Not about their lives, but the way they parade themselves to the world around. We can learn so much by watching people's demeanor, the way they express their emotions, the sort of dreams they nurture, the way they relate to others (or don't), their fears, hesitations, and specially their unspoken words and bottled feelings, when they try to disguise what hurt them and who they really want to be in full. There are so many nuances... It is a very fascinating thing! It is possible to learn so much about ourselves as well...
Mrs. Miniver's Rose
A rose was named after me. I love roses! It is interesting how much an ordinary gesture of kindness can affect someone's life. Because I use to greet the gardener every day, it made him to want to name the rose he nurtured with absolute devotion Mrs. Miniver. The rose is a masterpiece of nature. Its petals feel like velvet. Its red has an impressive intensity. Its shape has flawless edges. Its perfume, oh, is a feast to the senses! I have never seen something so divine. So, I was very touched by the compliment, it was the nicest I have ever received.
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